Post by Brandi on Jan 29, 2014 12:47:53 GMT -5
Hello JustUs,
I have been reading your site for a few days and I want to first thank you for taking the time and providing "real" answers. I know that there are others out here online but I love your Godly approach. This is unique.
I have a special situation, well it's special to me. I'm hoping you can give me a better insight on it.
I am an educated black woman in my early 40's. I am independent, single and known to come across intimidating (NOT that I try to be, but that's what I'm often told).
I work in a hospital so I deal with people on a daily. On one of my off days I needed to stop by the job to pick up some forms I wanted to work on over the weekend. I went there UN-uniformed and was waiting in the waiting room until my co-worker was free and able to see me. I was in somewhat of a rush but tried to sit patiently . This man, who I didn't pay much attention to sat next to me and kept starting conversations. I kept ending them. Somehow, he got me to laughing and I realized his conversation wasn't bad at all. When I saw that one of my co-worker's patient had come out, before I could tell this man goodbye, he asked if he could call me sometime. Well I was caught off guard but without much thought I said yes. When I reached to give him my business card, I then noticed something that changed the entire mood.
This guy was handcuffed. He was an Inmate. I don't know how I missed it but I did. I was reluctant but he grabbed the card before I could think to say anything. Then just so happens, his security officer stepped in and he was taken away.
I thought that would be the last of him. Surely he can't expect much from being in prison right?
No. This man called me within a few days later. Please don't ask me how because I don't want to incriminate him or anyone.
But Justus, this man is funny, intelligent and well aware of his wrongdoings in the past. Of course many inmates claim to have found religion once locked up but this man is sincere and it shines on him. His personality reflects greatly on his self awareness and it is impressive.
Getting to know him has probably been one of the best adventures of my life because he makes me feel like a woman. He gives me the attention, support and passionate desires I would want from a man out here on the streets.
It's been 8 months and we're still going strong. Even during our disagreements I'm still longing for him.
I know that I am falling for this man, I could very well love him but.....
I know I'm also fooling myself. This man is doing a 15yr sentence and has only served 5. I'm no spring chicken yet I would like to have a child someday. By the time I could consider being with him, I'll be too old for comfort. I feel like I'm living a secret life to my family and friends because no one knows of him. Or maybe I'm dreaming and need to wake up. He and I can't be so why am I entertaining his love? I have never felt so alive with him yet so sad.
What do you think I should do? Everyday we seem to get closer and closer. And I am seriously falling. I need help.
I have been reading your site for a few days and I want to first thank you for taking the time and providing "real" answers. I know that there are others out here online but I love your Godly approach. This is unique.
I have a special situation, well it's special to me. I'm hoping you can give me a better insight on it.
I am an educated black woman in my early 40's. I am independent, single and known to come across intimidating (NOT that I try to be, but that's what I'm often told).
I work in a hospital so I deal with people on a daily. On one of my off days I needed to stop by the job to pick up some forms I wanted to work on over the weekend. I went there UN-uniformed and was waiting in the waiting room until my co-worker was free and able to see me. I was in somewhat of a rush but tried to sit patiently . This man, who I didn't pay much attention to sat next to me and kept starting conversations. I kept ending them. Somehow, he got me to laughing and I realized his conversation wasn't bad at all. When I saw that one of my co-worker's patient had come out, before I could tell this man goodbye, he asked if he could call me sometime. Well I was caught off guard but without much thought I said yes. When I reached to give him my business card, I then noticed something that changed the entire mood.
This guy was handcuffed. He was an Inmate. I don't know how I missed it but I did. I was reluctant but he grabbed the card before I could think to say anything. Then just so happens, his security officer stepped in and he was taken away.
I thought that would be the last of him. Surely he can't expect much from being in prison right?
No. This man called me within a few days later. Please don't ask me how because I don't want to incriminate him or anyone.
But Justus, this man is funny, intelligent and well aware of his wrongdoings in the past. Of course many inmates claim to have found religion once locked up but this man is sincere and it shines on him. His personality reflects greatly on his self awareness and it is impressive.
Getting to know him has probably been one of the best adventures of my life because he makes me feel like a woman. He gives me the attention, support and passionate desires I would want from a man out here on the streets.
It's been 8 months and we're still going strong. Even during our disagreements I'm still longing for him.
I know that I am falling for this man, I could very well love him but.....
I know I'm also fooling myself. This man is doing a 15yr sentence and has only served 5. I'm no spring chicken yet I would like to have a child someday. By the time I could consider being with him, I'll be too old for comfort. I feel like I'm living a secret life to my family and friends because no one knows of him. Or maybe I'm dreaming and need to wake up. He and I can't be so why am I entertaining his love? I have never felt so alive with him yet so sad.
What do you think I should do? Everyday we seem to get closer and closer. And I am seriously falling. I need help.
