Post by Baline on Jan 31, 2014 15:42:39 GMT -5
Dear Justus,
I'm a 27-year-old woman who still lives at home. I do it so I can help my mom with my five nieces and nephews. Their mother passed away suddenly in 2009 at the age of 30. My mom and step-dad kept them rather than scatter them to fathers who don't appear very interested in them.
Since my sister's death I have earned two degrees, entered the health care field and have lost almost 140 pounds. Despite what I have accomplished, I feel I have nothing to show for myself. I feel that I'm trying to do all this stuff to fulfil what I'm missing. I feel like such a failure and I don't know how to boost myself up. I sometimes feel jealous of my sister because she always had all the attention and it seems any/every positive move she did was praised. She's no longer here and I still feel I can't compete. Of course I'd rather her be here than not but without her, it's worse. Even though she made a few bad choices in life, she would always say how she loved me and appreciated me. It still didn't help. I just have the lowest self esteem. When I point my accomplishments out to myself, they don't seem like a heck of a lot. What can I do so I can stop feeling like a loser? What's wrong with me?
I'm a 27-year-old woman who still lives at home. I do it so I can help my mom with my five nieces and nephews. Their mother passed away suddenly in 2009 at the age of 30. My mom and step-dad kept them rather than scatter them to fathers who don't appear very interested in them.
Since my sister's death I have earned two degrees, entered the health care field and have lost almost 140 pounds. Despite what I have accomplished, I feel I have nothing to show for myself. I feel that I'm trying to do all this stuff to fulfil what I'm missing. I feel like such a failure and I don't know how to boost myself up. I sometimes feel jealous of my sister because she always had all the attention and it seems any/every positive move she did was praised. She's no longer here and I still feel I can't compete. Of course I'd rather her be here than not but without her, it's worse. Even though she made a few bad choices in life, she would always say how she loved me and appreciated me. It still didn't help. I just have the lowest self esteem. When I point my accomplishments out to myself, they don't seem like a heck of a lot. What can I do so I can stop feeling like a loser? What's wrong with me?
